Ok, so my first attempt at blogging failed. Rick was right, it’s easier to start a blog than to maintain one. We’ll see if I can do better this time around.
This time around, I’m expanding my scope. It may surprise all my readers (that’s all two of you) to know that I have more to say about life than food. So while I still hope to post share some great culinary discoveries I’m also going to be sharing about motherhood, faith, world politics and anything else that strikes my fancy. Because let’s face it, this is more for me than you anyway. Enough explaining…
I just had my second baby and am loving life, although I forgot how insecure the first several weeks of motherhood make me feel. I’m spending an extraordinary amount of time, energy and love caring for this precious new little baby and all she does in return is dirty her diapers, eat at most inconvenient times (ie- when I have to go to the bathroom, when I’m trying to fall asleep, or the worst- when I just sit down for dinner), and sleep the day away. No hugs, no giggles, no “I love you Mama”s, nothing. If I’m lucky, I may catch a smile as she’s drifting off to sleep but every child-rearing book will tell you that the smile has nothing to do with me and everything to do with passing gas.
Babies are supposed to start smiling around 4-5 weeks. Until then, all I can do is change her, feed her, soothe her to sleep, kiss her, sing to her, etc. etc. and hope that somehow, in someway she interprets these actions as markers of what they truly are- unconditional LOVE.
I’ve had the privilege of my mom staying with me the past three weeks in an effort to help make this transition smoother. It’s intimidating to know that my mom loves me as much as I love my own daughters. Because unfortunately, no matter how much I love my mom (which is A LOT!), it’s a different kind of love than the love I have for my children. Mom warned me about this before I had kids and I didn’t believe her then, but I do now.
Well, speaking of daughters, both mine are sleeping at the moment which means I should get more stuff done (or lay down for a nap!).
So grateful.